Exam soon..
lost heart again...
HATE it!!!

fight for future

much much more things coming up this week..
BOM midterm, FYP, internship, BIS tutorial..
starting to regret why i wan to burden myslef to take such much course in short sem..
how if i cant handle it..
yeah, thats what i overexpected when decided to took an additional subject.

like the few sentences below, juz to share:
1.Do not regret. Because at that point in time, it is definitely what you really want.
2. If you love, your love; if not love, please leave.
3. As long as there is heart there is hope, there is happiness there.
4. No one with you for a lifetime, so you have to adapt to loneliness; no one will help you a lifetime, so you have to hard life.

5.  Life is a journey, do not care about the destination, should care about the scenery along the wayLook at the scenery and mood
6. Life is like a cup of coffee without sugar, drink up a bitter after taste up there Long the fragrance will not recede

都是我的错
是我太怕寂寞

how life go on?
yea..asking myself recently..
ya..is ok is good..
as long as you din saw the other side of it..

as time flies..
i learn smting..
learn to be x so dependable..
learn to be alone, to face problem myself
learn to be tough, to go through the trouble faced
no matter how will it end
i gonna faced it..MYSELF..

smtime, life is really unfair,
u had no way to choose..
all that u can do is do better in coming problem..
handle it in a better way,better skill and yet..mature thinking...
good luck

actually i'm not as strong as u tink
actually u x love me much as u love
actually u noe i noe
actually we had to let go

juz we are too cares to do it...

thank you my uncle

Uncle: y 1 2 cry?
me: my fyp, do til fed up

Uncle: b patient, nothing is permenant, it will go away.u won't b fed up all the time.do somthing else, change yr focus.
me: ya..coz doing literature review..too much journal to go through and omaost lost my way..

Uncle: take it easy la,learn to enjoy what u do
me: en..i wil try


Uncle: appreciate the chance u hv
me: now worried bout tranning too,coz letter that send out no news


Uncle: u mean yr industrail training
me: ya

Uncle: why worry when u r not there yet
me: I'm planning t find back-up in Melaka dy.coz my tranning is on 23 may 2011 and v ned to comfirm our company dy


Uncle: any where u still face it bravely lo
me: i hope i could

Uncle: u always give me the impression that u r a strong gal.U r strong.There r others worst off many2 times than us
me: did I? you ake me wan cry out dy...

Uncle: Yes u r a strong , hard working gal
me: happy to hear that,happy happy touch til cry ^^


Uncle: u ought 2 believe in yrself ma
me: yes sir!


Uncle:ini macam la
me: got strength dy!!gone to fight fight fight!! ^^thank you o~


Uncle: u r really fighting yrself, to keep up the spirit and strength ....ok?
           take care. good night

my conversation with my uncle within 10 mins
juz within 10 mins

his word really touch me

inspire me to continue fighting,believe in myself

maybe i'm not such strong as wat percept in his mind

i noe, he juz wan to to be strong to fight for life

keep going on but not give up easily

I'm glad.

Glad to have a uncle to counse me when i'm down

I promise

I will do my best

for my result,and my life^^

good luck to me

=)

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by xpei Ong

21/3/11 16:41pm

if there is 1000 step infront..
i had walk for 999 steps
but i left the last for u to complete
but it never been complish

i choose to be with the 1 who love me more..
not the 1 who hurt me most..
althought we all knew that
there will always a place for you
but it will always be a absent sit

I Miss you
and i meant it
for my last time i do...

this time
i knew ur words is to me
but u refuse to said to me
i noe
juz scare smting will change
 i'm a lonely gal tonite...

Cant sleep well..
coz u refuse to forgive me..
but mayb is bcoz i drink too much coffee...
my mood is affected direcly by u...
wtf i'm doing and thinking rite now..
gonna kill myself!!
hate it!

I Won't Cry

 I won't cry
I'm telling you that i wont cry
and even if i do
Iy's not becoz of you
coz i promise you that i won't cry

sorry been such sensitive...is over..promise...

I'm sorry...

i dunno whether ur words refer to me...
i dunno wahta am i thinking now..
i dunno..
i dunno anything..
but i noe and i think a had hurt u..

I'm sorry...really sorry..
sorry for every tings i said..
sorry for every reaction i gave..
i'm sorry...

i x mean to hurt..
really...i x mean to hurt u..
i dunno wat could i said..
may be it juz left..
sorry...and i miss u badly..

给：特别的你

如果有来世
我会等 等我再次遇见你
再次 喜欢你

如果有 你愿意吗

hopeless

或许 不该太自以为是
把成绩算多一遍
发现就算接下去每个学期都拿4.00
CGPA都不可能过3.67了
失望到底
现在 只期望不要再跌就好了

要把重心放回学业上
努力打拼了
没橙 柑也好
就向3.50迈进吧

加油！
（虽然已经很失望，但是在绝望就更没希望了）

泪水 把字都弄模糊了
看不清
就像我的心

对不起
此刻 想要一个抱抱

再次遇到
很不想承认 还是有点喜欢你
我很坏 是吧

=（

成绩又跌了
怎么好
两科C...三科A 都救不回的C..
难过 很难过

接受 原来也是一件很难的事

成绩几时要出
救命啊 不要让我一直想

不知道为什么
或许想地太多
最近的我　很情绪化
不喜欢
不喜欢这样

如果这世界　只剩下最后一分钟
那么　我想要的只是一个拥抱而已
就那样而已

一年九个月了 好快
上吉隆坡要小心哦 要帮我吃 吃肥肥 哈哈
爱你♥

60句话，你看懂了吗

1. 人生就像一杯茶，不会苦一辈子，但总会苦一阵子。

2. 低头要有勇气，抬头要有底气。
3. 傻与不傻，要看你会不会装傻。
4. 幸福是可以通过学习来获得的，尽管它不是我们的母语。
5. 不要见一个爱一个，爱的太多，你的爱就要贬值。
6. 想完全了解一个男人，最好别做他的恋人，而做他的朋友。
7. 朋友就是把你看透了，还能喜欢你的人。
8. 当我们搬开别人架下的绊脚石时，也许恰恰是在为自己铺路。
9. 如果说我懂的道理比别人多一点，那是因为我犯的错误比别人多一点。
10. 不是每句“对不起”，都能换来“没关系”。

11. 世界上只有想不通的人，没有走不通的路。
12. 地球是运转的，一个人不会永远处在倒霉的位置。
13. 走的最急的是最美的景色，伤的最深的是最真的感情。
14. 在事实面前，我们的想象力越发达，后果就越不堪设想。
15. 当别人开始说你是疯子的时候，你离成功就不远了
16. 你永远看不见我眼里的泪，因为你不在时我才会哭泣。
17. 时间就像一张网，你撒在哪里，你的收获就在哪里。
18. 如果我能够看到自己的背影，我想它一定很忧伤，因为我把快乐都留在了前面。
19. 理想和现实总是有差距的，幸好还有差距，不然，谁还稀罕理想？
20. 任何人都可以变得狠毒，只要你尝试过嫉妒。

21. 爱情就像攥在手里的沙子，攥的越紧，流失的越快。
22. 成熟不是心变老，而是眼泪在眼里打转却还保持微笑。
23. 做与不做的最大区别是：后者拥有对前者的评论权。
24. 人，长得漂亮不如活的漂亮。
25. 有些事，明知是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心；有些人，明知是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没有结局；有时候，明知没路了，却还在前进，因为习惯了。
26. 同样的一瓶饮料，便利店里 2 块钱，五星饭店里 60 块，很多的时候，一个人的价值取决于所在的位置。
27. 每个人出生的时候都是原创，可悲的是很多人渐渐都成了盗版。
28. 真坏人并不可怕，可怕的是假好人。
29. 浪漫是一袭美丽的晚礼服，但你不能一天到晚都穿着它。
30. 把一切平凡的事做好即不平凡，把一切简单的事做好即不简单

31. 把不忙不闲的工作做的出色，把不咸不淡的生活过得精彩。

32. 情侣间最矛盾的地方就是幻想彼此的未来，却惦记着对方的过去。
33. 忙碌是一种幸福，让我们没时间体会痛苦；奔波是一种快乐，让我们真实地感受生活；疲惫是一种享受，让我们无暇空虚。
34. 理想很丰满，现实很骨感。
35. 爱情永远比婚姻圣洁，婚姻永远比爱情实惠。
36. 探索的旅程不在于发现新大陆，而在于培养新视角。
37. 一个人能走多远，要看他有谁同行；一个人有多优秀，要看他有谁指点；一个人有多成功，要看他有谁相伴。
38. 叹气是最浪费时间的事情，哭泣是最浪费力气的行径。
39. 不是人人都能活的低调，可以低调的基础是随时都能高调。
40. 谈恋爱就像剥洋葱，总有一层会让你流泪。

41. 年轻时候，拍下许多照片，摆在客厅给别人看；等到老了，才明白照片是拍给自己看的。
42. 就算不快乐也不要皱眉，因为你永远不知道谁会爱上你的笑容。
43. 当大部分人都在关注你飞的高不高时，只有少部分人关心你飞的累不累，这就是友情。
44. 绝口不提不是因为忘记，而是因为铭记。
45. 让未来到来，让过去过去。
46. 微小的幸福就在身边，容易满足就是天堂。
47. 成功有个副作用，就是以为过去的做法同样适应于将来。
48. 天使之所以会飞，是因为她们把自己看得很轻 ……
49. 试金可以用火，试女人可以用金，试男人可以用女人。
50. 喜欢一个人，就是在一起很开心；爱一个人，就是即使不开心，也想在一起。

51. 幽默就是一个人想哭的时候还有笑的兴致。
52. 咖啡苦与甜，不在于怎么搅拌，而在于是否放糖；一段伤痛，不在于怎么忘记，而在于是否有勇气重新开始。
53. 人之所以活得累，是因为放不下架子，撕不开面子，解不开情节。
54. 漂亮只能为别人提供眼福，却不一定换到幸福。
55. 美丽让男人停下，智慧让男人留下。
56. 人生最精彩的不是实现梦想的瞬间，而是坚持梦想的过程。
57. 忍无可忍，就重新再忍。
58. 付出真心，才会得到真心，却可能伤的彻底；保持距离，才能保护自己，却注定永远寂寞。
59. 废话是人际关系的第一句。
60. 有时候，不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看的太重。

part time job interview

going for interview at new JJ coffee bean..
bek with dissapoinment..
yea i'm x yet been rejected but juz my six senses telling me i wont be employed..

I'm going for part time baristas as i felt that next semester will be too free for me..
my class will only from monday-wednesday..then off from thrusday- sunday..
although i will be having my research paper but i tink i will able to handle it..
and yet i'm just lack of money..
poor..very poor..

The shop' manager changed her mood after i told her that i will be going for trainning at 23 May..
and thus telling me that they hope to employed for full-time worker
she even ask me to intro my frz to go over..
goodness...shouldn't i be too honest??..regret..

baristas..a way toward my dream..
a cafe..owning it is my dream..
nothing i can do to chase it otherthan learning it now..
saving money and gain experience..

hmm...they are going to have walk in interview in coming wed-fri..
hoping there is no others better choices appear so they will employed me^^
hehe..i'm bad..i noe~who cares~blek~

dear god!bless me pls~~~