sorry mum...

Recently really not feeling good..
how should i express myself?...
felt that everyting is so unrealistic...
not wat as i wish...
finishing appling for the scholarship..
truthly i din put a high hopes on it...
that's luck...
i knew it...
always notice...

money not enough...
trying to find a job to support myy expenses...
however if i work...
how i going to cover my activities n my studies?...
really feeling tired...
wondering how i go through my past life with 12 subject+activites..
although the result on that time is oso not consider excellent
but i really felt a stress on my life now...

after purchased this laptop
really can considr myself bankrap dy...
yest my mum asking me to take sm money to paid for paint
unfortunately...
i cant even help my mum...
i really felt sorry to her...
i'm not a good gal...
i noe...
sorry mum...
sorry....
i love you...
i not means to trouble you...
but i realy no interest being a teacher...
may b wat i did wrong was choosing wrong school...
burden you expense...
i'm really sorry...
sorry....